Arthur

One of my oldest friends, appears to be consciously drinking himself to death. He seems to be doing his own version of Leaving Las Vegas. (My friend's friend also recently died from an alcohol related illness).

At the moment, things like that are not bothering me. Perhaps this attitude is immature and will change. I have no idea.

God is free to choose ignorance. Who am I to say that it should be differently? My friend doesn't want my help and I am not sad nor depressed about it. As Francis Lucille once said, "There isn't a lack of Grace. What's lacking is a sincere desire for Grace" That feels very true in the case of my friend.

No doubt my current life attitude is directly related to my vocation. Lately, I've been spending a lot of time contemplating the non-existence of time and following the pathway that leads to the experiential understanding that Scott's death is the equivalent of the passing of a thought. This pathway requires a complete letting go of the character in the movie.

I suppose this attitude could be confused with depression, or giving up, or spiritual by-passing. Perhaps...because I think we all have our own unique blind-spots that only others can see. But this doesn't feel like that.

It's just the truth isn't it? Nothing is to be taken too seriously. Nothing exists outside of Consciousness. This is all mind stuff. There is only God. The action figure Scott dies at the end of a thought.

Scott is a concept. He is a thought that is believed to be true. It is a thought that says I am a man living in time and space...I am 56 years old sitting in my living room typing a blog. I am real and have my own autonomy. But is it true? That is the question that needs to be investigated.

The good news is that the truth can be investigated. Everyone is able to answer these questions if they are interested. It takes openness and a genuine interest. And a good teacher(s). Eventually, the universe becomes our greatest teacher.

We just need to want to know (and very few want to know in my opinion). We investigate until we are absolutely certain. Our understanding of the truth and our degree of certainly is everything.

The good news for me is that the truth is getting more clear everyday. My understanding continues to deepen. Even better news is that the process is effortless. Truth seeking is my kind of hobby. (My friend would have been a natural also). Our true nature is effortless, therefore, efforting can't take us there.

I could have posted an ugly picture representing the evils of alcohol. That doesn't feel right for me. It would be too hypocritical. For me, drinking is a blast.

Until it isn't.

I wish I could tell my friend what I now know. The joy of living is the simple joy of being Conscious...and the knowing that I am not anything that can be perceived.

"Everyone who drinks is not a poet. Maybe some of us drink because we're not poets"

-Arthur