Path of Intelligence

At the begging of my journey, which I often refer as 'the Adyashanti years'. I was following someone who taught using the Zen Buddhist traditions and language. Although well intentioned, I was lost. Basically, for 2 or 3 years I was a guy meditating his guts out, hoping for something to happen. Waiting for some kind of an event that would transform me into an enlightened being.

(As I explained in an earlier blog, there is no such thing as an enlightened person. But I didn't know that then)

I am still pursuing the truth, but now I am using my intelligence.

Adyashanti was pointing to the nothingness of things but I didn't get a whiff of the truth until I learned to explore my experience and start trusting my intelligence. If it is the truth that I seek, then there should be some experiments that we can run. I don't need to wait for a miracle.

My intelligence is telling me that there CAN'T be any THING here. That is a very different approach. I am now starting with the understanding that Consciousness is the reality of experience. Once I am completely open to this possibility, I can now relax and let the experience find this understanding. The word relax needs to be underlined many times. Effortless effort. Do nothing. Seek to understand and let God do the rest.

I am open because the previous world view is now clearly seen to be inconsistent with my experience and honestly doesn't make sense when examined closely. I am, therefore, ready to let go of my belief systems.

Adyashanti was right when he said, "At the end of the day, this is a let-go game" I agree. It is a game of letting go of beliefs. Some beliefs have deep roots. The only way to let go of deeply held beliefs is to see clearly that they are not true. We all have so many deeply held beliefs, that have been accepted as fact, that we fail to even recognize them as beliefs.

It is really important to understand the concept of reality. Reality is the most important part of any object or experience. It is the biggest part. It is the substance. It is the shared reality of everything we see, touch, taste and smell. Only reality is real. Only existence exists.

The reality of the ring is the gold. The reality of Mt. Rushmore is the rock. The reality of the cloud is the sky. The reality of the landscape in the movie is the screen. The reality of Neo's world in the Matrix was a computer program. The reality of my current experience is Consciousness.

Time & space is the illusion. The phenomenon. The movie. Consciousness was here first. Before matter. Consciousness is the biggest piece. Not the cosmos. Consciousness is our shared reality.

After close discrimination of my experience, I can say with absolute certainty that thoughts, sense perceptions and bodily sensations all appear and disappear within Consciousness. In other words, Consciousness is the medium of experience. This is a fact. We must choose to trust our intelligence.

These facts are in direct opposition of popular opinion and common sense belief systems. These facts are also in direct opposition with my conditioned way of viewing the world. I am currently in the process of rewiring my brain. This part is taking time but its fun work. The pay is shit, but it has its benefits such as knowing that there is no death. And the deep understanding that everything is always OK. As Bill Murray joked in Caddyshack, "so I got that going for me"

I am tired of living a lie. I am going to trust my intelligence. I am going to trust Team Sages over Team Trump. And in the meantime, if necessary, I will fake it until I make it. (I will explain what this means in a separate blog)

When in doubt, I will revert back to the 'not knowing what I am'. Because that is the truth. I don't know what I am. I can only be it knowingly. Also, it would not be intelligent to leave the 'not knowing what I am' to the ignorant position of believing to be a body without any supporting evidence.

I will choose to stay in wisdom. I will trust my intelligence that Consciousness is real. That 'I AM' is real. Believing the lie of being a person would be choosing ignorance over wisdom. Belief over intelligence.

It would also be blasphemy. Believing I am a person is the original sin. It would be turning my back on God. It would be saying, I am choosing to believe that you do not exist when I know that I do exist.

Knowing is a one-way street. Only God knows. And only God can know itself.